Weekend Warrior #39

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Weekend Warrior

Here is another weekend, wrapping up. Not close to being finished what we are working on, but we are going to get up and go in a few minutes to keep getting the living room reorganized.

I am happy to report that I was busy this weekend, it was relatively quiet, and mostly at home, so I got the downtime I needed after the excitement earlier this week. I also did some writing, which I had not made enough time for, and I was stressing over that too.

Friday night I came home and decided to join in some writing sprints for NaNoWriMo. There is a time set and we all write on our own. When the time is up we share a bit and tell our word count totals. Between Friday and Saturday, I did four of these, and I got over 10,000 words written for the novel. Editing will be necessary later, but the point of Nano is to get the word count. I am finally moving in the right direction again.

That is my highest word count on any novel writing to date. I am so pleased that from here on out I am beating my own personal record with EVERY SINGLE WORD.

I have spent time shredding paper in the living room, to have less clutter to deal with as we reorganize the living room. We have been planning to do this for a while, and it is finally happening. There may be pics next weekend as it should be done by then.

Today I started with a movie and breakfast out after. I wasn’t impressed, so I am not going to write about the food. I enjoyed the movie. We went to see Justice League. It was better than the critics are leading people to believe. We all enjoyed it. They are making me a fan of Wonder Woman all over again. Aquaman was well, um, yeah. Nice.

There was a new Deadpool trailer before the movie, and in typical Deadpool style, it was totally hilarious and had not too much to show about the movie. If they can duplicate the success from the first one in the next one, I am going to be very happy. But don’t bring your kids. Deadpool movies are NOT for kids. I am a fan, however, and I plan to go.

As I still have a list of things to do here this weekend, I am going to get back to it. I am feeling like we made enough progress that I want to keep the momentum going.

What did you do this weekend?

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Weekend Warrior # 38

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Weekend Warrior

Another weekend win for me this week!  I was kidnapped on Friday night while driving my own car of my own free will and coerced into a girl’s night out with a friend. We hadn’t had a lot of fun It had been a while since we saw each other, so I decided it was worth it to spend time away from writing and be with a friend.  We went out for dinner and a movie. It was a lot of fun.

Saturday had a slow start. I watched the Remembrance Day ceremony held in Ottawa on TV. I do appreciate the sacrifice that anyone and everyone made to give me the freedoms that I enjoy today. I also watched a show on the History Channel. It was a roundtable discussion of veterans and they were sharing some of their experiences. For the better part of 3 hours, I thought about my grandfather, listened to the stories, and watched the ceremony. I also was away from social media for those hours. It was how I wanted to remember, and I am incredibly thankful that I have the choice to do it in a way that felt personal to me. I had a root beer in honour of my grandfather, he used to drink root beer.

I then took my time on social media, sending out a few things, to let people know I was back. I planned to clean my desk and the living room. While I was watching TV, I was thinking about the furniture arrangement. Roy had suggested a plan to move things around, but I wasn’t sold on his plan. I saw an alternative to it in my mind, and when I described it to Roy, he thought about it, and he liked it too.  He modified the idea I had, but we are now on the same page and we started cleaning to prepare. Stores were closed on Saturday. That night he went out to hang with the guys. I worked on the cleaning.

I got up and wrote something Sunday morning. Early. I went back to bed, and I dreamed about the thing I wrote being stolen, changed, and passed off as the original work. I thought my life was in danger, but it was just my writing. After I got up I calmed down; and made breakfast.  Then I waited and waited. Finally, we went to buy the DIY project supplies and a few other things we needed. Later on, much later on, Roy pulled out the saw he bought and started cutting wood. I made him stop, it was late and too noisy. He will finish another time.  We want the room to be reorganized and ready for next Saturday. I am hosting a NaNoWriMo write-in and then heading out to watch my friend in a Karaoke competition.  So next weekend will be busy, but I have time scheduled for writing! Finally. Once this room is moved around, then we can settle in for the winter, and enjoy living in it again.

There you have another busy weekend. I may not have things on time, but I am still writing, something, when I get a chance.  How was your weekend?

Trust Your Gut Thursday: Tish’s Story; Part 37

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Trust Your Gut is a series of stories about real people with weight issues, and complications arising from those issues.  It will explain what the person is facing, what their options are, what they have decided to do to take action, and why they chose the path they are on.  Each person’s story will be based on truth, so it won’t all be happy, but it will be real.  The goal of this series is to get people talking about options that are available for people who have weight issues, on either end of the scale.  If you would like to contribute to this series, there is a contact form linked on my Homepage for this blog.  I know there are people out there that want to help people like them; as I do.

 

The names here may or may not reflect the person’s real name.  If someone wants to remain unknown, we will choose a different name for that person’s story.  The goal is to help people, and anonymity is a valid personal choice for contributors.  I will use a person’s name only if they give permission to do so.

This week I am pleased to share another of my own stories.

Here is  Trust Your Gut: Tish’s Story; Part 37

 

This week I have not stepped on the scale, or measured inches. I did go to Zumba Monday and missed it Wednesday because of circumstances beyond my control. I hope to start going twice a week again starting Monday.  The day I made it I had 5,187 steps. That might be the highest step count I have ever had at a Zumba class.

I mentioned that last week I was on the scale at the doctor’s office. I was up. I didn’t want to face it.  Bahahahahaha!  My chocolate chin is where it all went. I swear.  I wasn’t going to put a number on it, but as I am sure that I lost half of it already, I can face it now. 😉 I had gone back up to 312 lbs. I knew things were bad, and not as bad as the worst, but I was right.  Making small changes to ease myself back into eating more on plan than off plan is working.  I am sure the 12 lb chocolate chin is 6lbs or even less right now.

If I don’t laugh at it, I will curl up in a ball and cry as I eat the rest of the Halloween chocolate and chips. I am going to have my Thursday glass of wine with some Smartfood Gouda & Chive popcorn.  Maybe more wine if I want to, but not necessarily. I need to get back on track one meal, snack and day at a time. I am happy today that I made BigMac salad for lunch yesterday. It was SO good. I am probably having it for lunch tomorrow. I made a pot of chili tonight. I am trying. That is better than not trying, and I can live with that. I couldn’t live with a 12 lb chocolate chin.

I think it is time to look at a new NSV.  If you are new here, that is a non-scale victory.  I admittedly love chocolate.  Chocoholic, right here. I can make chocolate treats on the plan. But I am thinking about something bigger.  Bolder.  Goal achievement status.

I keep seeing commercials that catch my attention. Something I saw tonight made me think I need to get focused, and I think I found my next reward.  I am not going to have to only go to twoville for this, I am going to need to be in onederland. That big.

More than one goal.  As if I am just working for the big one, I am not going to make it. If I set the goal too high, I will fail. I know it. I can plan clothes shopping trips as I need them in the short term. I am also gearing up to start wearing more makeup. So those things can be small goal rewards. This may have to be the end of the journey prize!  What on earth am I planning?

Well, I think it is time to set my sights on some other forms of chocolate. The inedible kinds.  There are chocolate coloured dogs. I want a dog. We aren’t ready yet…sad, I know, but it is a major decision, and I want to be sure that I am 100% ready for the responsibility of taking that dog home. I now have an idea.  How do I make it bigger?

BLING! I make beaded jewellery, and I am working on my website to launch it. I am not expecting it to be an instant source of income (although I wouldn’t have a problem with that), but I rarely make jewellery for myself. Bigger. Have you figured it out yet?

Diamonds, my friends. I am going to talk to my husband and set some realistic goals, and buy myself some diamonds. But not just any diamonds. For this plan to work, it has to be chocolate diamonds.  I want Bling rewards!

I might be too far into the wine to be rational at this point, but I don’t think so. I am planning to up my game and work hard for something tangible.  Something that won’t affect my blood sugars, and won’t cause me to be morbidly obese anymore.  I have been saying that I am worth it, and it is high time I start planning to show it.  So there you have it. I am setting the chocolate bar for myself, 😉 and you know what? I am looking forward to saving up for something really special.

#TrustYourGut

P.S. I am on time with this one!

Trust Your Gut: Tish’s Story; Part 36

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Trust Your Gut is a series of stories about real people with weight issues, and complications arising from those issues.  It will explain what the person is facing, what their options are, what they have decided to do to take action, and why they chose the path they are on.  Each person’s story will be based on truth, so it won’t all be happy, but it will be real.  The goal of this series is to get people talking about options that are available for people who have weight issues, on either end of the scale.  If you would like to contribute to this series, there is a contact form linked on my Homepage for this blog.  I know there are people out there that want to help people like them; as I do.

 

The names here may or may not reflect the person’s real name.  If someone wants to remain unknown, we will choose a different name for that person’s story.  The goal is to help people, and anonymity is a valid personal choice for contributors.  I will use a person’s name only if they give permission to do so.

This week I am pleased to share another of my own stories.

Here is  Trust Your Gut: Tish’s Story; Part 36

Well, I have good news, and bad news this week.  I went to the Doctor. Not because I was sick, but rather because it was time for a checkup.  I met my new doctor. Finally.  If first impressions are worth anything, I knew in the first minute I found myself a good one.  She seemed meticulous and genuinely wanted to get an idea for my plans in relation to my overall health before my checkup.  I needed to find a doctor that I could trust, again. My last doctor was good, but I think this one is going to be great.

The bad news is that I got weighed.  I am not at the all-time high from before, but I certainly am not in as good a shape as I have been in the past.  I am not following the plan, and I am visibly showing that to the world.

What is wrong with me? Why do I eat things that are bad for me? Why can’t I just lose weight and eat whatever I want to eat, like skinny people do?

I have health issues.  I have reasons, and I know that realistically, it didn’t add up overnight, so it will not be removed overnight, either.  I know in my mind that junk food is bad for me, and healthy food can taste good. But sometimes I pick the lazy way. Other times I self-sabotage. There are times when I just make up excuses and choose to believe them, even though I know they are lies.  Chocolate and the monster have been prominent in the last few months.

I don’t know how long I am going to be in this slump. I do know that the number on the scale made me take notice.  It is a real number, one I can’t pretend isn’t an issue anymore by refusing to weigh myself. Avoidance is not a valid option when it comes to Diabetes.  I know that. I am having difficulties in other parts of my life, and something is holding me back from being the best version of myself.

Sometimes, you have to hit rock bottom before you can climb out of a slump and rise up to your next level.  Whatever I am going through in my personal life, I can’t eat it away.  I have to face it and deal with it. Head on.

That is not an easy thing to do. It is not an easy thing to think about, let alone to write about, to share with people. But it is going to help me break free and move forward.

Change is hard. I have been pushing my limits with my writing and my blog while keeping a day job and running on coffee.  I have been out of the multivitamins for a few months, now, and I plan to buy some again asap. They do help.

I got the doctor to change one of my prescriptions.  One of the side effects of the other medication was drowsiness, and I was having a hard time with it.  I know that I am a night owl, but I used to be OK with keeping up with my current schedule. I am starting to not do as well as before.

Maybe that was me tapping into the mystical energy people talk about having when they lose weight.  I have gone in the wrong direction on the scale, again, and that is definitely a factor. Being heavier means it is harder to do everything because you weigh more. It doesn’t mean I am going to stop and give up.

I need to do some soul searching, and find a reason to get things back on track.  I know I felt better, had more energy, and was happier.  But if things are not Ok on the inside, and I am spending some of the precious energy I do have in keeping up the appearance of being happy for the world to see, then I need to get to the root of the problem, so I can find a solution.

It isn’t easy, but it is necessary to propel me into my next level. The fear of wondering how bad my weight has become is not holding anything over my head anymore. I know what it is, and I know how it happened.  Now I have to find out why, so I can take the next step to working on my goals.  I have to keep telling myself that I am worth the effort, that I matter, and that it is important to make my health a priority.  It won’t be easy, but nothing worth doing ever is.  Time to deep dive into my issues and make some changes.

#TrustYourGut

Treasure Seeker Tuesday: Special Halloween Edition

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Treasure Seeker Tuesday: Photo by Tish MacWebber; Photo Edited by Noa Price

Happy Halloween Treasure Seekers!  I am writing at the end of my day.  I got up and put on my costume and makeup.  I came home and handed out treats.  It is so much fun to open the door in costume and see the reactions of the kids, and even some parents.  I got a few compliments and was swarmed by a mob of little,  costumed people as they didn’t want to miss out on their treats.  It was not scary, most of that crowd was under 5 years old.  Their parents had a small bit of panic that they were being rude, but I am from a small rural community (this is a hint about my trilogy-the location-not a real place, but a familiar one) and we used to go into people’s homes for our treats when we were kids.  It was how things used to be, in a small, rural community.

Halloween is full of fun, adventure and maybe a scare or two.  Some costumes are scary.  Some are fun!  I like the creative ones, and one boy liked my costume.  He was wearing all black, and used glow-sticks to decorate himself, had them as glasses and different parts of his outfit.  I returned the sentiment.  Being dressed as a leopard, I was more tired tonight than I have been in other years.  I know this because when the kid in the Scream mask asked, “Whassup?” My reply was a cranky sounding “Me-yow.”  I listened to music, asked preferences of chips or cheesies, and ate the bag of microwave popcorn I got at work today so I didn’t get too hungry before supper.

Before I washed my face, I made a short facebook live video to say hello to people and show that my makeup lasted for the whole day.  I was glad to be able to wash my face.  I never noticed how many times a day I wanted to scratch my nose before. LOL.  Then I made some sandwiches, and I am preparing to go to bed.  On the Eve of NaNoWriMo.

I am going to be writing a book in November, with a lot of other people.  I am going to need to edit after because I don’t think slamming 50,000 words in 30 days will be the kind of writing that is ready for publishing.  I do want to write 1,667 or more words every day in November to win and get to the 50,000 word goal for the month.  I have tried before, but I have not won.  This year, I have the inspiration generated from thinking about the loss of a friend, who regularly participated in NaNoWriMo.  She will be featured.  I was originally going to write the whole book about her, but it is less pressure and research if I write about what I know.  So the concept has its origins but has evolved.  That is how I roll.

This week I am writing about writing.  I am preparing to embark on a journey to test my skills in a new format with goals and ideas.  As I wrote this I had to stop and make a note.  The thoughts are percolating.  The ideas are coming out in bits and pieces.  This year I am going to win!

I have also made an arbitrary decision that November is MY month.  It is the month when I get things together, make changes, try new things, and move forward in my life.  It happened last year, and although I am not launching my new website yet, I am getting ready to do it.  A year ago I started blogging.  This year I am writing books, and building a website.  ME!  By myself, with coaching and guidance from friends I know or have met on this journey.

What are you going to try this November?  Let’s make it a winning month together.  I told you what I am doing.  How can I help you?  Let me know below. Have a great week!

 

 

Trust Your Gut: Tish’s Story; Part 35

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Trust Your Gut is a series of stories about real people with weight issues, and complications arising from those issues.  It will explain what the person is facing, what their options are, what they have decided to do to take action, and why they chose the path they are on.  Each person’s story will be based on truth, so it won’t all be happy, but it will be real.  The goal of this series is to get people talking about options that are available for people who have weight issues, on either end of the scale.  If you would like to contribute to this series, there is a contact form linked on my Homepage for this blog.  I know there are people out there that want to help people like them; as I do.

 

The names here may or may not reflect the person’s real name.  If someone wants to remain unknown, we will choose a different name for that person’s story.  The goal is to help people, and anonymity is a valid personal choice for contributors.  I will use a person’s name only if they give permission to do so.

This week I am pleased to share another of my own stories.

Here is  Trust Your Gut: Tish’s Story; Part 35

Another week, another story.  Here I sit, planning a million and one things in my life all at once.  I have chicken breasts cooking with greek dressing as a marinade.  I have 3lb of ground beef to cook.  2lb for spaghetti sauce, and 1lb for Big Mac Salad.  I will use my spaghetti squash and zucchini when I eat my spaghetti.  Roy will have pasta.  He isn’t following the plan with me, but I must get myself back on track.  So I am planning meals again.

I am not making it to Zumba as much as I would like to be able to.  Transportation is my biggest issue causing me to miss it.  And a stomach bug this week did NOT help.  I am feeling better tonight and starting to look forward.  The weekend is busy, and having food prepped will help me be ready.

Big Mac Salad is something I love to make and eat.

It is really an easy recipe and can be found all over Pinterest.  I cook the ground beef, then add onion soup mix.  I use iceberg lettuce, tomatoes, cheddar, thousand island dressing, dill pickle relish, and to give it the BigMac without the bun garnish, I sprinkle sesame seeds on top.  When you want a BigMac, and you are trying to eat healthier, this is a great way to do it.

The idea is not mine, and like I said, there are many versions online, including the THM Trim Mac Salad which is found in the THM cookbook.  There are recipes that are completely from scratch for the dressing, but I prefer to just use the Kraft Thousand Island dressing.  It does the job.  They even have BigMac sauce for sale now in grocery stores now, if you are a hardcore BigMac fan.

The other thing I like to have made for the burger cravings is Cheeseburger pie.  That is a THM recipe that I make frequently.

You can find a recipe for Cheeseburger Pie at this link: Cheeseburger Pie Recipe

I am not the creator of either recipe, but I can recommend them both as delicious. I like to add tomatoes and dill pickles after it is cooked.  The recipe link shows it being served over lettuce.  I have yet to try it like that. ( I usually eat it straight up.) I also add ketchup and mustard. One time I made my own THM ketchup.  I would like to make it again sometime.  I am working on finding time to cook again, as I am not happy with the way things are now.

I will make cheeseburger pie another night, as I am going to do what I have to do and compromise.  So I am making spaghetti sauce and going to have it on my vegetables.  I am going to keep moving forward on my plan because I need to get going in the right direction again.

If you try the recipes, let me know what you think!

Weekend Warrior #35

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Weekend Warrior

I spent a bit of time cat sitting this weekend.  That happens sometimes.  I like cats, and there may be a time when we need help from our friends, so I make sure I am available.
I watched some movies on Netflix with the cats.  Movies my husband has not expressed an interest to see.  I watched the Gaga movie Five Foot Two.  I enjoyed it.  It gave the fan a look from the outside into her creative process, showing her as a person that has issues like everyone else.  It also gave insight into the thought process behind her last album, Joanne.  Wow.  I didn’t know what that song was written about.  I had an idea, but the documentary really explained a lot about the title song.  There is so much more to her heart than I knew.
I also watched Hidden Figures.  That was a really good movie.  It made me mad sometimes, about the way things used to be.  I am glad that things are different, now, but I don’t think that they are better.  People are people, and we need to work on being nicer to each other.  Me too.

I watched the documentary Long Time Running too.  As a Tragically Hip fan, I was sad to hear the news last week that their frontman, Gord Downie, died after fighting his battle with cancer.  It followed the band and a bit of his solo project in the last year.  They had a concert that was aired commercial-free last year, and any show they were in since, whether it was on CBC or CTV has been aired the same way.  The last concert of their last tour was broadcast across the country in its entirety pretty much everywhere.  I watched it on a big screen with several hundred strangers and a few friends.  It didn’t matter, we all sang, watched and cried together.  I am glad I made a point of doing that, as I never got to see them play live.  This was as close as I was ever going to get, and it was such a memorable evening.

I have reflected about the musicians that have died in the last few years.  I don’t know of any that took a fatal illness and fought it head on to raise awareness for both the illness and a cause close to their heart.  Gord has made Canadians stop and think about many things this past year.  He had the support of his medical team, his band, his family, and his fans through it all.  What a legacy to leave behind.
Last night another Gord Downie hour took up my attention.  It was the concert of his mission, The Secret Path.  It is not my story to tell, but it made me sad to watch it last night.  It wasn’t that it was being aired after he passed away, but the raw artistry displayed in telling the story along with the animation and song moved me to tears.  It was not a story with a happy ending, and it has me wondering what I can do to make things better.  I cannot fix the past mistakes made in Canada, but I can try to help and heal.  Someone said to just reach out and be a friend.  I think it is an excellent place to start.

Around all of this, I had a really busy Saturday.  I had 2 separate events.The first one was the annual Boston Terrier Rescue Canada Recycling for Rescue Event.  I showed up and helped separate some cigarette packages for recycling.  I helped hang a poster and went on a coffee run.  I donated to get a BBQ lunch.  My husband also enjoyed lunch and had cashed in some bottles a neighbour donated for the rescue.  I got someone to tell him about a dog that needs a home through the rescue, but he said no.  We have to be in agreeance when we get a dog, it has to work for both of us, and for the dog.  So no dog for me yet.

I then jumped in my car after bringing him home and getting my laptop.  I went to the first NaNoWriMo Meet & Greet of the season.  I had a little too much caffeine in me, and I chatted everyone’s ears off.  I hope I didn’t scare anyone off.  😉 I was a little bubbly, and if I am saying I was talking a lot, I was.  I think it went well.  We all answered questions when asked, and I think it was a success.

I was so busy I am feeling like I am forgetting something.  I had to scrub my BTRC t-shirt in between events as it decided to be a magnet for coffee and mustard.  Then I found out there were puppy paw prints on it too.  LOL.  There were dogs a the event, and they were friendly.  I really don’t know how I got all that done in a weekend, but I fit it all in.  I am feeling rather tired still, so I am hoping to have a chance to rest up around the other project I am working on.

I KNEW I WAS FORGETTING SOMETHING!  I am hard at work on the website.  I want to launch it on November 1st.  The blog has moved, and I will be adding this to the other location and the other stories up until November 1st will be in both locations.  Then I will be working on the website for the blogging and other new adventures from then on.  Don’t worry, it won’t be hard to find, and I am going to share the links when it is ready for the launch.  I am finally pushing forward with this project, and I am getting excited about it.  It was a super busy weekend, with ups and downs, full of challenges and progress.  Next weekend is busy with Halloween parties, and if we are lucky I will have some pictures for the story next weekend.  Until then, sorry it was a little late, but I was definitely a winner this past weekend!  How was your weekend?

 

 

Trust Your Gut: Tish’s Story; Part 34

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Trust Your Gut is a series of stories about real people with weight issues, and complications arising from those issues.  It will explain what the person is facing, what their options are, what they have decided to do to take action, and why they chose the path they are on.  Each person’s story will be based on truth, so it won’t all be happy, but it will be real.  The goal of this series is to get people talking about options that are available for people who have weight issues, on either end of the scale.  If you would like to contribute to this series, there is a contact form linked on my Homepage for this blog.  I know there are people out there that want to help people like them; as I do.

 

The names here may or may not reflect the person’s real name.  If someone wants to remain unknown, we will choose a different name for that person’s story.  The goal is to help people, and anonymity is a valid personal choice for contributors.  I will use a person’s name only if they give permission to do so.

This week I am pleased to share another of my own stories.

Here is  Trust Your Gut: Tish’s Story; Part 34

They say that the core muscles are where your strength comes from.  Mine hurt today.  I had an awesome Zumba class yesterday.  I didn’t feel like I worked out that hard, but I felt it last night when I was getting ready for bed.  I am getting ready to start pushing myself in the writing game.  This means I need to be active, or I will be a blob of goo in December.

I am not kidding.  I have fallen way off track this fall, and I am working on getting my head back in the game.  I need to put together a plan.  I have been talking about this for a while.  Thinking, not doing.  Sometimes it is because I have other things that take priority.  It happens to everyone.  This or that becomes a priority.

The next thing you know, there are so many things that are a priority, you get left behind.  I think that is what I am fighting with myself about right now.  The importance of me.

I still have not checked in with the scale.  I won’t do it until I am feeling brave.  That won’t be until I am making strides in the right direction.  I need to start wanting to track my progress.  I can’t do that to myself right now.  I don’t want to know how badly I have let things slide. I do want to pick myself back up and start wondering again.

I had some lows this week.  That is a sign that I am turning a corner.  When I am noticing that I need to lower my insulin doses again, it means that things are starting to work in my body.  I have found that I am not able to go with a Zero carb diet.  That is why I am positive that THM is the best option for me.  I am getting there.

Writing about it helps.  I am trying to inspire myself with my words.  I have accomplished so much two weeks ago and nothing of significance this week.  Except for the change in my blood sugars and getting myself to Zumba.  That means this weekend I have some work to do.   If I am going to be successful next month with my writing goals, I need to get serious about planning EVERYTHING out.

Time to make some lists.  Time to make some changes.  Time to make progress.  Last but not least, time to make ME important enough to be a priority in my own life.

#TrustYourGutThursday

 

Treasure Seeker Tuesday #2

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Treasure Seeker Tuesday: Photo by Tish MacWebber; Photo Edited by Noa Price

Hi.  I am so glad that you took a few minutes out of your busy day to read my blog.  I am humbled and honoured every single time I get feedback and new statistics.  Every time you take time to read one of my stories, you impact my dreams. You reinforce my beliefs to follow my dreams and make them into a reality.  I am discovering my purpose here on this Earth.  I am so glad that I am making it happen, and I am just as happy that you are sharing my journey with me.

I have always had a creative spark within.  It was not enough.  I have worked on cross stitches, embroidery, drawing, painting, beadwork, knitting and crocheting,  and now I have rediscovered my love for writing.  I didn’t work on my writing very much since high school.  When I was in English classes, it turned me off writing as a career.  I had to read books I never would have chosen to read, then I was forced to find hidden meanings that were a stretch for me to believe.  I like things to be at face value.  I also like to be funny, punny and clever.  Dissection belongs in science class, not in English class.

After high school, I chose a path to science.  I started a pre-vet program.  I never made it to vet school.  I did finish my Bachelor of Science in Agriculture, with an Animal Science Degree.  It was an honours degree.  It took me longer than the average four years to complete it, but that makes me all the more proud to hang it on my wall.

I met my husband while studying for that degree.  We met through a group of mutual friends.  When we decided to start dating, things clicked.  We are happily married, and that is something that I can wish for all of you to find. Love.  It is an adventure that we all need to grab onto and hold tight when it happens.

If you are not in that kind of relationship at the moment, please do not despair.  It is not your time yet.  Things happen for a reason, and I truly believe that.  Your story is not yet finished, and it is up to you to get up every day and see where it takes you.

I did not find a job with my Bachelor of Science.  I went back to school and trained to be a Pharmacy Technician, who currently earns her living by working in a call center.  Is this the career path I would have chosen for myself ? No.  Would I jump at the chance to go back into the world of pharmacy? Absolutely.  I enjoyed using the scientific side of my mind.  It was a satisfying career choice.  But it was not the reason I ended up taking that course.

I believe that I was sent in that direction for another reason.  I learned how to mix IV medications and prepare chemotherapy drugs in a sterile hood.  My familiarity with working with needles helped me to adapt to having to learn how to give myself insulin.  Sometimes you need to figure out what led you to the path you are on, so you can decide if you want to keep on that journey, or find a new branch and follow another trail.

No matter what path you are on, it is up to you to learn what you can while you are there. When you have finished learning all that you can, if you are not still inspired to continue learning, it is time to try something different.  Even if it scares you.  When you do this you are pushing boundaries, and that is when the magic happens.

Now I am going to plant some seeds.  Something to think about for the week,  to help you on your own journey.  What choices did you make to lead you to where you are today?  If it was difficult, it was to make you stronger.  How did it do that?   If it was easy, why was that easy for you? What things do you love doing so much that you lose track of time when you are working on them?  Those are the things you need to investigate further, to see where they will take you.  Maybe when you do, you will find that you surprise yourself like I do when I am writing.

One last thought.  When you find yourself going two steps forward, and three or even five steps back, go with it.  Dance within the ebbs and flows of life.  Join me, and together we will make our own paths in this world.  One step at a time.

#TreasureSeekerTuesday

Trust Your Gut: Tish’s Story; Part 33

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Trust Your Gut is a series of stories about real people with weight issues, and complications arising from those issues.  It will explain what the person is facing, what their options are, what they have decided to do to take action, and why they chose the path they are on.  Each person’s story will be based on truth, so it won’t all be happy, but it will be real.  The goal of this series is to get people talking about options that are available for people who have weight issues, on either end of the scale.  If you would like to contribute to this series, there is a contact form linked on my Homepage for this blog.  I know there are people out there that want to help people like them; as I do.

 

The names here may or may not reflect the person’s real name.  If someone wants to remain unknown, we will choose a different name for that person’s story.  The goal is to help people, and anonymity is a valid personal choice for contributors.  I will use a person’s name only if they give permission to do so.

This week I am pleased to share another of my own stories.

Here is  Trust Your Gut: Tish’s Story; Part 33

Insulation.  Fat. I have it in abundance.  Someone might think that it would result in me being warm all of the time.  That is not true.

Circulation.  Normally, if you have normal circulation, all that warm lovely blood pumping in abundance in your veins keeps you from being cold.

Diabetes.  The chronic condition that I live with every day.  Making it difficult to do a lot of normal things, like staying warm.

What do I do to combat being cold?  Layers.  Yeah, that’s what the morbidly obese person needs to do to keep warm.  Put on layers.  Make yourself appear larger than you actually are.  Brilliant.

A friend told me that I should try wearing a scarf, especially when I started cutting my hair short.  I have one I wear a lot. It is the first scarf that I knit for myself.  It does help.

If I get up and move around, it helps.  Can’t do that at work.  So I layer up.  I do stand up from time to time and get breaks.  But sitting still for seven hours a day in a generally cold office means I have to take my own comfort control.

I have been cleaning.  I unburied the bathroom scale, and am scared to step on it.  I fear the worst.  It is taking me away from the computer and writing, a bit.  It is also a form of “I am not sitting down I am up and moving around so it counts as exercise.

I went back to Zumba.  I got 4800 steps last night.  That is good.

It has been a long two weeks, and I am up too late again, this time with very little inspiration.  So, I will keep on working on me, my house and my writing.

I think I have hit a metaphorical wall.  There is only one thing left to do.  Get back up and try again tomorrow.

Trust Your Gut.